I was feeling down in the dumps about my job–how inadequate I feel at my job–the things I miss-the stuff I forget–how late I am at work every night trying to document all the things I did for my patients all day–How I wish I had more time with my patients making them feel better instead of worrying about how the “powers that be” at the hospital that is the administration are trying to move beds around–move patients around–etc…All this worrying and feeling alone about it–you know what I mean: try and express this feeling to other nurses and the aura or air about them is that they have time to do their job, spend time with patients and feel all good about their last 12 hours: this must be some sort of sick RN defense mechanism because I certainly on most days feel like poop. Green poop from popping iron pills is how I feel on alot of days.I am not going to hide that truth from myself and I screw up, mess up, and forget things alot!
So in the midst of this self pitying, pity party over myself and my job performance and the lingering dwelling sad weight of all the patients that circled the drain ever in my now 6 months off of orientation memory: I read something that really made me laugh out loud.
I laughed all by myself out loud and thought, “if someone could see me they would think that I have lost my marbles!”
I just want to thank the RT responsible for this laughter because I actually felt some sort of weird chemicals being released into my brain that made me feel some sort of weird goodness or happiness.
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